INY

let me open up and start again,
and break this safe around my heart,
i don’t know how to let you in,
and that’s what keeps us apart
and that’s why I need time

i’m thinking now’s the time?
maybe its time to go,
if i gave you my heart,
be gentle,
i’m tired of laying low,
lets give the world a show
and when you know,
you know,
and when you know,
and that’s why I need time,

i need you,
i need you to understand..

Atok Gayah

aku tiba di Tampoi, Johor pukul 8:32PM tadi. aku terus melulu ke dalam rumah. melihat keadaan atok yang telah lena tidur membuat aku hiba. atok sakit kuat lagi. sepupu aku mengatakan atok sering memanggil nama ku dan sering meminta aku berada disisinya. aku resah seketika. kehadiran aku membuatnya terjaga. atok meracau tak tentu hala. aku cuba menenangkan keadaan atok. atok melihat diri ku dan bertanyakan siapa aku. aku tidak cam aku lagi seperti dulu, membuatkan aku menitis air mata. aku cuba mengingatkan atok siapa aku pada dirinya, ternyata cubaan aku gagal. sampai ketika ini aku masih berjaga dan kekal disisi atok. semoga atok sembuh seperti sedia kala. aku rindu hendak berborak dengan atok, melihat atok senyum dan ketawa..

"yuri harap atok cepat sembuh ya, yuri ada je ni tok.." atok mesti kuat..

oh! sweet

people think i make a story, people said that i am bluffing. always tell a lie. i'm not searching for someone sympathy here, i'm sympathy for myself. people looking at me with that kind of way. people play with my heart. i don't need people. they treat me like a rubbish. i don't need you, you play my heart like Atari. good night. sweet dream.

silent.fade.away

i lost my words already
you leaving me without a words..
am i do any mistake?
am i breaking your heart before?
am i make you feel like dying?
why are you pushing me away?
are you not over me anymore?

i'm trying to let go but
its make me heartache and pain
crying can't make me feel better
alone make me feel more suffer
i don't know..
i don't know whats more can i do
to get the answers from you

now..
i make a decision
after what you done at this moment
i think..
i am leaving today
and leaving will drive myself crazy
its harder than you know
after this..
i am gonna miss you
because
i love you baby..

dear child

not an ammo

loosing grip

laugh. jump. smile. happy.
..thats the reason you forgetting myself here.

tears. hurt. pain. sorrow.
you came to me, hold my hand and hug me tightly..

that so you.
yes..
yes you are.